Grief – the type we’ve faced since May 13th – is unlike anything my family has ever known. It has changed us. That said, although we think of Jordan every minute of every day, some days are good – really good – as our Shepherd, Jesus Christ, slowly restores our souls. One thing that’s become … Continue reading A Grief Observed
Peace
All Things Through Christ Jesus
Well, I lost it emotionally this morning as I was leading music. But, the Body known at BHBC lifted me, embraced me, and carried me through the rest of the music portion of our worship service.I really can't imagine not being among this very special "family" during this time. A friend of mine who was … Continue reading All Things Through Christ Jesus
Baby Steps
I wake up each day thinking, "Will there ever be a minute I do not grieve?" Then I have to accept the fact that we're only 3 months removed from Jordan's death. It's just gonna take time. I still battle daily with trying to "undo it all" in my mind, which exhausts me mentally, and … Continue reading Baby Steps
Suffering: A Fishhook in the Human Heart
In his award-winning book, “Where Is God When It Hurts?”, Philip Yancey writes, “Novelist Peter De Vries has called the problem/mystery of pain [in this world] ‘the question mark turned like a fishhook in the human heart.’….Many suffering people want to love God, but cannot see past their tears….Sadly, the church often responds with more … Continue reading Suffering: A Fishhook in the Human Heart
Jordan’s Grave Marker
Jordan's grave marker came in about a week ago...my family went to see it today. It was brutal. Surreal. There's no other way to describe it. But knowing that Jordan isn't in that grave gave my family peace and joy. Jordan left his earthly body and is in the presence of God Almighty in Heaven. … Continue reading Jordan’s Grave Marker
Blessing in the Loss
Matthew 5:4 (The Message) “You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you."
Soul Food
Isaiah 40:28-29, 31 - "...The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak [He causes it to multiply and increase]...those who [wait on, … Continue reading Soul Food
Firewall
Speaking through the prophet, Zechariah, God described to Israel the protection & peace He would provide for all of His people after Christ's return. Of course, "this side of the cross," we have this protection & peace, spiritually - in Christ, right now! Zechariah 2:5 - "And I will be to her a wall of … Continue reading Firewall
You Want Me to Go Where??
If you're like me, you've read (and heard read) the 23rd Psalm countless times. Written by David, this "Shepherd's Psalm" is one of the psalms I've quoted over & over since May 13th when my son, Jordan, met the Shepherd face to face. To his seminary students, Dietrich Bonhoeffer (executed by Hitler's SS in 1945), … Continue reading You Want Me to Go Where??
“As Soon As You Began to Pray….”
(Initial post) I know that so many people are hurting in this world today. And I hate to continue to ask you to help me with mine, but sometimes the sadness is so heavy that it's suffocating. I would deeply appreciate your prayers today. Nick (A few minutes later) It never fails - never. Moments … Continue reading “As Soon As You Began to Pray….”