My friends, i so appreciate the prayer for me & my family over the weekend. I now am convinced I reverted back into shock this past Friday evening. It was frightening. I lost sight of the reality of Jesus - and all hell broke loose in my mind. But, Christ is faithful (not to mention … Continue reading Shock Absorbtion
Grief
Wanting My Day in Court
I read the book of Job (the "o" in Job is "long") differently since May 13th. Job lost ten children - i lost only one. But, I think the death of merely one child can send a parent over the edge. I love the man, Job, because he gives me biblical permission to accuse God … Continue reading Wanting My Day in Court
Losing My Way. And Finding It Again.
I want to thank each of you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers/notes/love for me last night. In hindsight, I can think of a number of things that triggered it, but not since the early days following Jordan's death have I been filled with as much rage and pain as yesterday. It … Continue reading Losing My Way. And Finding It Again.
Suicide and the Bible – Part 1 of 2
NOTE: On May 13, 2013, my son, Jordan, took his own life. He was 19. What follows is one of the blogs I wrote in response to that event. nw ALSO: If you have been, or are, suicidal, there is HOPE and there is HELP, in abundance! You matter. You are loved. You have infinite … Continue reading Suicide and the Bible – Part 1 of 2
The Depression Epidemic
As of this week, there were still a few things at my office that had been "undisturbed" since my son took his life on May 13th. I finally forced myself to go through a small stack of papers a couple of days ago. Inside that stack was an article I'd printed off on April 10th … Continue reading The Depression Epidemic
What Proof Is There That God Loves Me?
There have been moments these past months that I've wanted to give up on God. I'm simply being honest. As one who grew up in a severely alcoholic home, I witnessed more violence as a child than I care to remember. As a full-time pastor now for some 30 years, I've had, on occasion, the … Continue reading What Proof Is There That God Loves Me?
A Grief Observed
Grief – the type we’ve faced since May 13th – is unlike anything my family has ever known. It has changed us. That said, although we think of Jordan every minute of every day, some days are good – really good – as our Shepherd, Jesus Christ, slowly restores our souls. One thing that’s become … Continue reading A Grief Observed
All Things Through Christ Jesus
Well, I lost it emotionally this morning as I was leading music. But, the Body known at BHBC lifted me, embraced me, and carried me through the rest of the music portion of our worship service.I really can't imagine not being among this very special "family" during this time. A friend of mine who was … Continue reading All Things Through Christ Jesus
Baby Steps
I wake up each day thinking, "Will there ever be a minute I do not grieve?" Then I have to accept the fact that we're only 3 months removed from Jordan's death. It's just gonna take time. I still battle daily with trying to "undo it all" in my mind, which exhausts me mentally, and … Continue reading Baby Steps
Finding Jesus In an Asylum
Yet God, with undeserved kindness, declares that we are righteous. He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins. For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin. People are made right with God when they believe that Jesus sacrificed his life, shedding his blood. (Romans 3:24-25) It's … Continue reading Finding Jesus In an Asylum